So many months have pass, so many things have happened, be it good or bad, it has all happened already..

Some highlights or rather lowlights:

School:

Ever since school started for year two, i haven't been really doing any studying or revision. why so? perhaps i've lost my interest? distractions here and there. common tests came unprepared and i really need to buck up for the semestral exams. i hope i will..

I'm starting to doubt myself if i'm a good friend to others, maybe it's my insecurity but i have the fear of having no friends at some point of my life. I have to accept that friends come and go. And many dont deserve my time at all. that's life.

Family:

You know sometimes dad don't understand me and there were plenty of quarrels (as usual), peace don't really last long. quarrels were really heated and i lost control of myself on several occasions and yelled in their faces. sometimes i thought i need counseling. quarrels leave me confused and frustrated. you know the feeling of everyone is against you?

Highlights:

Perhaps the only good thing that happened in the months was my first kart race. I won it. Well, at least i drove better than the 29 other drivers. The win means a lot to me because i'm serious in doing it really well. Apart from getting a medal, i'm getting a pair of racing gloves :)




It seems like more bad things happened than good things.. i need something to vent out my stress, my thoughts, the confusions, the mess inside me. give me a punching bag.




I don't know what you think of me, but I'm sincere and I know you deserve my love :)

Signing off.

THE END:9:40 PM